I'm so much funnier on the internet

I've started back to school. I took a 2 week leave because a doctor said my daughter had scabies. When the bumps showed up on my fiancé and I also (just on our hands, on her chest/side/underarm area) I went to another doctor and he automatically agreed with the first doctor. Since I work with the public at school, I couldn't be there and have a potentially contagious condition.

Except I'm pretty sure the doctor was wrong. We had none of the symptoms (crazy itching, "burrows" under the skin, bumps that look like blisters) of scabies. The only thing that made it similar to scabies was that it was passed from her to him and from her to me. Thursday I went to a different doctor, she looked at my hand for about 30 seconds and said it was eczema. I'm pretty sure eczema isn't contagious and according to an instructor at school who has it, this isn't it. Whatever it is the doctor cleared me to go back to school. They gave me a cream to put on my hands twice a day (a corticosteroid) and told me to use a low dose cortisone on the baby. I don't know. Between us we saw 4 doctors. Pediatrician said scabies. Immediate Care Center doc #1 heard me say that Pediatrician said scabies, automatically agreed and sent me on my way. VA doctor said I don't know but it doesn't look like scabies. Immediate Care Center doc #2 said eczema. So, who knows.

Either way I'm back in school. Which is miserable but at the same time it gives me something to do and keep myself busy so I supposed it's good. We're allowed to accept tips so every now and then I get a little pocket money. I'm to the point where I'm just so fed up with the whole thing. I've been in school since June of '09. If I hadn't taken my leave earlier this year I would be graduating next month. Instead I'm graduating in February. Which means about 4 more months of working for no pay. That's basically what we do.

The school is so disorganized. One person at this location will tell you something but someone at another location will tell you something completely different. It's just...very ugh. I'll be happy when I get my 1500 hours and can say BYE BYE! I'm going to have to do a few 40 hour weeks to make up my hours though. BOO.

I guess that's enough whining, what do you think? How about some pics of a project I recently finished?

A hat I originally started as something for myself but as you can see, it ended up A LOT smaller than I had intended lol. It fits Sam perfectly though (all of her curly mop is tucked up in the hat).

I want to color my hair. I was on a kick for a while where I decided I was going to go back to my natural color and just forget about coloring it. Now I'm bored and I want something new. I saw kits in Walgreen's to go green and some other colors and now I want to go black with some funky colors in it. Except I know it will tear my hair up.

So maybe just black? Maybe just some highlights? Not from school, they don't know what they're doing and I can't do them on myself. Blah. I just need a change, big time!

I've been in such a funk lately! I have no inspiration, no motivation. Sometimes I have trouble paying attention long enough to get anything done. I read things and I play games but when it comes to expressing myself, I'm pretty much tapped out. There has been some stupid, childish things going on at school and somehow I ended up right on the receiving end of most of it. Simply for asking people to do something they said they would do.

Oh, side note. If you tell someone that you are going to do something (more than once), if you know you're not going to be able to at least be polite enough to be apologetic about it and for heaven's sake TELL THEM! A simple, "I'm sorry, something has come up and I can't make it" is fine. It is much better than telling them yes up until the last minute and then getting defensive about it.

I swear, women are so horrible to each other. When someone else is acting a donkey you say how you would never do that and you are grown, out of high school, too smart for that stuff. Then when it comes down to it you turn around and do the same damn things! SMH. It's ridiculous.

Onto other stuff. I won an eyeshadow trio from NYX. It's the first product I've ever owned from them. I haven't used it (remember that funk I mentioned?) but I did swatch the colors on my fingers and they look nice. I got TS02A "Honey Comb" which is basically browns. Light, dark, medium. I like my safe colors :) Don't get me wrong, I love my 120 palette and the 88 palette that I have but in the end I *know* I'll use browns.

Hopefully I'll be around with something worth hearing soon. I've recently begun seeing a therapist. I'm not sure how that's going to go but I'm willing to give it a shot if it will work. I didn't feel awkward talking to her on my first visit but I did almost start crying and I hate that. I'm so overly emotional lately it's got me all messed up.

It's 5am here (my insomnia is raging full force lately) and I know the baby will be up in about 3.5 hours so I need to go crawl into our (brand new! WOOT) bed and try to sleep a little bit. I'm going to try very hard to post some pictures of random stuff tomorrow or in the next few days. My oldest is having a tonsillectomy on Tuesday so if you stumble on this, wish us luck!

*edit to add pics*