I'm so much funnier on the internet

I've been in such a funk lately! I have no inspiration, no motivation. Sometimes I have trouble paying attention long enough to get anything done. I read things and I play games but when it comes to expressing myself, I'm pretty much tapped out. There has been some stupid, childish things going on at school and somehow I ended up right on the receiving end of most of it. Simply for asking people to do something they said they would do.

Oh, side note. If you tell someone that you are going to do something (more than once), if you know you're not going to be able to at least be polite enough to be apologetic about it and for heaven's sake TELL THEM! A simple, "I'm sorry, something has come up and I can't make it" is fine. It is much better than telling them yes up until the last minute and then getting defensive about it.

I swear, women are so horrible to each other. When someone else is acting a donkey you say how you would never do that and you are grown, out of high school, too smart for that stuff. Then when it comes down to it you turn around and do the same damn things! SMH. It's ridiculous.

Onto other stuff. I won an eyeshadow trio from NYX. It's the first product I've ever owned from them. I haven't used it (remember that funk I mentioned?) but I did swatch the colors on my fingers and they look nice. I got TS02A "Honey Comb" which is basically browns. Light, dark, medium. I like my safe colors :) Don't get me wrong, I love my 120 palette and the 88 palette that I have but in the end I *know* I'll use browns.

Hopefully I'll be around with something worth hearing soon. I've recently begun seeing a therapist. I'm not sure how that's going to go but I'm willing to give it a shot if it will work. I didn't feel awkward talking to her on my first visit but I did almost start crying and I hate that. I'm so overly emotional lately it's got me all messed up.

It's 5am here (my insomnia is raging full force lately) and I know the baby will be up in about 3.5 hours so I need to go crawl into our (brand new! WOOT) bed and try to sleep a little bit. I'm going to try very hard to post some pictures of random stuff tomorrow or in the next few days. My oldest is having a tonsillectomy on Tuesday so if you stumble on this, wish us luck!

*edit to add pics*

The TRIA Skin Clarifying System came today :) I've used it already and I can't wait to post here about it as I go along. I don't have a before picture because my camera isn't advanced enough to take pictures that would show my breakout areas. Of course, I'm not having any of my usual breakouts right now either. Next time though, I'll take a picture for here. Only for here; I don't want everyone seeing my zits!

I also managed to get a lighted stand up mirror from Big Lots for $12. It has a touch sensor and 3 light settings so you can make the light brighter if you want. Now I can do makeup sitting down. I used it to touch up my eyebrows. I'm trying to grow them back but I don't want the caterpillar look. No bueno.

We also bought a small camcorder. It's not super great quality but it's records in HD and it was on sale for $79.99 at Big Lots and WalMart sells it for $149.99 (in store) or $99.99 (online). I figured we might as well go ahead and get it since we don't know when we'll be able to afford the one I actually want. It's $132 on Amazon right now but in stores it's about $175. I'll make do.

That means DUN DUN DUN! I can start doing videos soon. I just have to find things worth videoing. Wish me luck.

I meant to post an update and talk a little about a few things that have been going on lately and then today I had a couple of huge, horrible panic attacks and ended up spending the night in the ER. That ruined all of my plans.

I have a couple of things planned for the next few posts. I won the Sedona Lace 88 Matte Palette from Katiengo* and as soon as it gets here I'm going to have pictures posted and try a few things out. I don't have a super awesome camera and my skin/hair isn't as awesome as most reviewers (not to mention I'm just starting out with the whole more than one color thing lol) but I will be honest.

I also won the TRIA Skin Clarifying System from Hello Beauty and want to show everyone what it's about and how it works on me.

I'm trying to get some medication issues out of the way before I can do anything, so bear with me. ♥

Trying a new template. Going to have to let it sit for a few days to see if I like it. The title is annoying me because it's not centered right in the box but I don't have the patience right now to dig through the coding and try to find where it's at to change it.

Doctor today. Hopefully, I'll come out with some hope instead of discouraged.

Oh oh OH! I won a Sedona Lace Matte Palette from Katiengo*. Me, the one who never wins anything. On top of that, I won something from HSN. I dunno what it is exactly, some sort of hair product. I was trying to google it from my phone and got too frustrated, so I gave up. Oh well. I'll find out when it gets here. There will be pics to follow, of course.

For now, I'm going to attempt to sleep.